Today I went to see the neurologist about my MRI results.
I received great news. He said my brain looks marvelous!  He said I am having Aura Migraines which, combined with the wrong meds, can cause a stroke. He also said that I am very tense: that I needed to learn to relax, to take life more lightly, to trust more. As he was talking I was saying to myself “you have no idea what my life is like…it is easier said then done” but I also started reflecting on the last 4 months.
My sister Edith would say that I was like a rock. I would go with her and Cory to each doctor’s appointment. I was there with to hear each horrifying update. At no time did I cry or get mad or react in a bad way. I now understand it was mainly because I was more shocked than anything. We, the Salazar girls, have never gone through losing a loved one. I honestly didn’t know how to respond to the news. I would like to think that I was strong and responding out of a mature faith but that is not true. My migraines show that I was just trying to be strong in my own strength.

Here are the lyrics to a song that ministered to my heart many times while in the states and today as I was praying and asking God to help me learn to trust Him.

"Peace" from the Galkin CD - "Each Day I Live" 

Peace, You give peace
When the storms come and I’m afraid
Peace, You give me peace
When I trust in the words You say.
You give me peace.

If you can calm the sea
Then You can comfort me
If winds obey Your voice
Why should I fear their noise?
And though my eyes can’t see. 
I know You’re with me. 

When someone starts to fight
And does things I don’t like.
I hear your gentle voice
Saying I have a choice to make an enemy or spread your peace

Peace, you give peace
When the storms come and I’m afraid
Peace, you give me peace
When I trust in the words you say. 
You give me peace.

This is what I am seeking: True peace. Peace that understands His presence, power and unmerited favor towards me. I realize that my lack of peace is rooted in unbelief. 
"Let not your heart be troubled; ye believe in God, believe also in me"
 Please pray for me as I learn to trust the words of My Father.

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